Diet? Weight loss? More like SLACKER! I went up a pound this week. Time to get serious about this diet again. I'm so close to being under 200 lbs, why am I suddenly not working at my diet? I'd say "here's hoping for a better week," but I think my period will be here next week so I probably won't see any progress for 2 weeks. Yuck.
I need motivation.... I can't use clothes shopping because I've been on several shopping sprees lately, 2 of them were just 3 days apart.
Ok, here's my idea. I've been really thinking about going all blonde for a while now. I've decided that next time I get highlights, I'll ask for bigger chunks of blonde. I'll keep doing that until I can tell if I'll like myself blonde or not. I have a nail appointment today and was seriously thinking about seeing if they had an opening to color my hair. But I'll use that as a reward instead.
When I have lost 10 pounds from where I am right now, then I will get my hair colored. That should put me well enough under 200 lbs that I'll never see that number again. Looks like I've got my work cut out for me. Time to start eating better and start exercising again.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Week 20
I feel like my weight loss might be too boring to blog about each week, but each pound feels like a milestone to me so I think I'll keep blogging each week, even if there isn't anything to talk about.
This week was nothing special, and yet at the same time, its so close to being special. So first, the not so special, and by that I mean boring. I feel tons and tons better now that my gallbladder is gone, but I'm still not fully recovered enough to get back into heavy exercising. I MISS exercising! I want to walk the dog, go ride bikes with Mel and the boys, get out my Wii Biggest Loser Challenge. But the fact of the matter is, I'm still pretty tender on my insides. I did a simple job of not 20 feet the other day to catch up to a co-worker, and it hurt. She reminded me that even though my incisions look good, I'm still weak inside. I had surgery! They cut into my muscles and removed a part of me. I may be feeling better, but inside, I'm still healing. So for now, I'll continue to take it easy.
I didn't want to over extend myself, so I haven't done anything this week. In fact, the last time I exercised was July 3rd. :( Next week, I think I'll try to walk on my morning breaks again and see how I do. After this much time, I'll probably have to build back up my endurance anyways, so I might as well start small.
The almost special moment? I'm only half a pound from being under 200 pounds. So close! Actually, during my recovery, I did dip down that low. I think I lost about 8 pounds last week while I was still recovering. But I knew once I was back to myself, I would bounce up a little. Which I did, I gained back about 4 of those pounds. But I knew I would so I'm okay with it. At least I know that I can get below 200. I should be there next week. :)
Weight Watchers? Hm, I don't think I've been on their website at all this month. I was so sick that I was just in survival mode. Sleep was the most important thing. I ate just enough to get by. I'm not sure the last time I counted points. I feel out of habit. Even now, with me feeling so much better, I still haven't been on the website. And I'm not frantically pausing this post to go there either. Which makes me think, maybe I can do this on my own. WW has been great to teach me things and help me make better choices, but now I might feel ready to do it on my own.
I haven't fully decided. It is nice having their website when I want to look up things for nutritional value. And its only $17 a month, so its not like its going to break the bank. But I haven't been on this month, so why am I paying for it? I think I'll take some more time before I decide anything. Maybe try to recommit to the website and see if I can make it habit again.
My SIL just started WW and I'm super excited to not be the only one trying to loose weight. Which is another reason I want to be fully healed inside, I want to be her walking buddy. I'm trying to find a bike trailer so we can each take a boy when we go bike riding. I thought I had one found for free, but when I got it, it was a piece of crap. So I'll keep looking.
The comments are reallly starting to come in. I find it funny that guys at work on now noticing. They are so nervous to mention it. They must know to not a gal about her weight. My supervisor was really funny. He told me he didn't mean to pry, but was I loosing weight? He's been wanting to ask, but didn't dare because he knew women get touchy about that subject. But he figured since I'm looking so good, it was ok to ask. I love bragging to people how much weight I've lost so far so it always tickles me when someone notices.
I take monthly payments at work, so I only see people once a month, and a few of them have started to notice too. It always makes my day. :)
Today, I feel skinny. I know I'm not there yet, but I just feel good today. I feel good because the gallbaldder issue is resolved. I feel good because my hair is cute today. I feel good because I actually put on makeup today. I feel good because its time to cut another hole into my belt. I feel like I'm drowing in my pants and that makes me feel skinny. I love feeling this way. Go me!
This week was nothing special, and yet at the same time, its so close to being special. So first, the not so special, and by that I mean boring. I feel tons and tons better now that my gallbladder is gone, but I'm still not fully recovered enough to get back into heavy exercising. I MISS exercising! I want to walk the dog, go ride bikes with Mel and the boys, get out my Wii Biggest Loser Challenge. But the fact of the matter is, I'm still pretty tender on my insides. I did a simple job of not 20 feet the other day to catch up to a co-worker, and it hurt. She reminded me that even though my incisions look good, I'm still weak inside. I had surgery! They cut into my muscles and removed a part of me. I may be feeling better, but inside, I'm still healing. So for now, I'll continue to take it easy.
I didn't want to over extend myself, so I haven't done anything this week. In fact, the last time I exercised was July 3rd. :( Next week, I think I'll try to walk on my morning breaks again and see how I do. After this much time, I'll probably have to build back up my endurance anyways, so I might as well start small.
The almost special moment? I'm only half a pound from being under 200 pounds. So close! Actually, during my recovery, I did dip down that low. I think I lost about 8 pounds last week while I was still recovering. But I knew once I was back to myself, I would bounce up a little. Which I did, I gained back about 4 of those pounds. But I knew I would so I'm okay with it. At least I know that I can get below 200. I should be there next week. :)
Weight Watchers? Hm, I don't think I've been on their website at all this month. I was so sick that I was just in survival mode. Sleep was the most important thing. I ate just enough to get by. I'm not sure the last time I counted points. I feel out of habit. Even now, with me feeling so much better, I still haven't been on the website. And I'm not frantically pausing this post to go there either. Which makes me think, maybe I can do this on my own. WW has been great to teach me things and help me make better choices, but now I might feel ready to do it on my own.
I haven't fully decided. It is nice having their website when I want to look up things for nutritional value. And its only $17 a month, so its not like its going to break the bank. But I haven't been on this month, so why am I paying for it? I think I'll take some more time before I decide anything. Maybe try to recommit to the website and see if I can make it habit again.
My SIL just started WW and I'm super excited to not be the only one trying to loose weight. Which is another reason I want to be fully healed inside, I want to be her walking buddy. I'm trying to find a bike trailer so we can each take a boy when we go bike riding. I thought I had one found for free, but when I got it, it was a piece of crap. So I'll keep looking.
The comments are reallly starting to come in. I find it funny that guys at work on now noticing. They are so nervous to mention it. They must know to not a gal about her weight. My supervisor was really funny. He told me he didn't mean to pry, but was I loosing weight? He's been wanting to ask, but didn't dare because he knew women get touchy about that subject. But he figured since I'm looking so good, it was ok to ask. I love bragging to people how much weight I've lost so far so it always tickles me when someone notices.
I take monthly payments at work, so I only see people once a month, and a few of them have started to notice too. It always makes my day. :)
Today, I feel skinny. I know I'm not there yet, but I just feel good today. I feel good because the gallbaldder issue is resolved. I feel good because my hair is cute today. I feel good because I actually put on makeup today. I feel good because its time to cut another hole into my belt. I feel like I'm drowing in my pants and that makes me feel skinny. I love feeling this way. Go me!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Week 19
Should this week even really count? My gallbladder came out on Monday. Its so nice to have that gone! Even though, I am now stuck trying to recover from surgery. It hurts like heck to get up and down, especially from the couch or the bed. But once I get up, most times I feel ok.
I MISS exercising! But I know I'm not up for it right now. I walked outside and down the porch and the lawn to check on Sage this morning. That was a lot of work for me. :( I want to be healed up and back up to par. Until then, I just keep reminding myself how bad those attacks were.
The scale has been all over the place this week. I started the week up a little, but am now down a bit. As of right now, I am less then 2 pounds away from "onederland". It feels like a small victory given how I feel. I'm worried that once I feel better I'll put weight back on.
I haven't been eating much. Tuesday was my best day. I was starving, so I ate some. But then Wednesday afternoon, my belly became upset and has been ever since. So now I'm eating just to make myself eat.
I'll try to see it for what it is. Yay, I'm down several more pounds, even if it hasn't been the healthiest way to loose weight. When I'm feeling better and eating more, I'll also feel good enough to exercise so hopefully I won't gain much (if any) back.
I MISS exercising! But I know I'm not up for it right now. I walked outside and down the porch and the lawn to check on Sage this morning. That was a lot of work for me. :( I want to be healed up and back up to par. Until then, I just keep reminding myself how bad those attacks were.
The scale has been all over the place this week. I started the week up a little, but am now down a bit. As of right now, I am less then 2 pounds away from "onederland". It feels like a small victory given how I feel. I'm worried that once I feel better I'll put weight back on.
I haven't been eating much. Tuesday was my best day. I was starving, so I ate some. But then Wednesday afternoon, my belly became upset and has been ever since. So now I'm eating just to make myself eat.
I'll try to see it for what it is. Yay, I'm down several more pounds, even if it hasn't been the healthiest way to loose weight. When I'm feeling better and eating more, I'll also feel good enough to exercise so hopefully I won't gain much (if any) back.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Week 18
This week is pretty much a blur. My gallbladder attacks are getting worse and becoming more frequent. I had 2 on Monday night. I was so tired at work, that I clocked out for 3 hours and went to my mom's house and slept. Then Tuesday night I had the worse attack so far. It hurt so bad, I wanted to just black out so I couldn't feel the pain. I have asked around and asked if I just went to the ER during these attacks, would they take it out there. Most likely, no. They'd keep me for the night and then maybe take it out the next day. I already can't afford all these test they insist on, let alone a night in the ER so I'll keep trying to suffer at home. This gallbladder has to come out!
Because I'm living on such little sleep each day, I haven't exercised in a while. I feel like I'm just in survival mode, and to go beyond that would push me over the limit. My day is, drag myself out of bed 15 mins before its time to head to work. Go to work. Take a nap during lunch instead of eating. Try to survive the rest of the day. Go home, eat a quick dinner. Then try to get a few hours sleep in before an attack can set in. They usually start about 1 AM and last until 2:30-3:30. When I do sleep, I don't think I sleep well because I'm so worried.
Last night I opted to sleep on the couch because that's the only place I can sleep once the attack starts. I didn't have one last night, so maybe it helped. But its not near as comfy as my bed. Even though I got a full nights sleep finally, I"m still dragging today. I just need time to sleep and catch up.
And because misery loves company, my period is here on top of all of this.
Bottom line, up one pound, but not that surprised about it given everything. Hopefully this next week will be better. My doctor is supposed to call me today and hopefully we can figure out how to make me feel better.
Because I'm living on such little sleep each day, I haven't exercised in a while. I feel like I'm just in survival mode, and to go beyond that would push me over the limit. My day is, drag myself out of bed 15 mins before its time to head to work. Go to work. Take a nap during lunch instead of eating. Try to survive the rest of the day. Go home, eat a quick dinner. Then try to get a few hours sleep in before an attack can set in. They usually start about 1 AM and last until 2:30-3:30. When I do sleep, I don't think I sleep well because I'm so worried.
Last night I opted to sleep on the couch because that's the only place I can sleep once the attack starts. I didn't have one last night, so maybe it helped. But its not near as comfy as my bed. Even though I got a full nights sleep finally, I"m still dragging today. I just need time to sleep and catch up.
And because misery loves company, my period is here on top of all of this.
Bottom line, up one pound, but not that surprised about it given everything. Hopefully this next week will be better. My doctor is supposed to call me today and hopefully we can figure out how to make me feel better.
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