Friday, November 25, 2011

Week 38

I should have posted yesterday, but I didn't want to brag about a great week and then ruin it all on Thanksgiving dinner, so I decided to wait until today.

Drum roll please.... yesterday was Thanksgiving dinner and I STILL lost weight! I was so proud of myself yesterday. I only had a few things on my plate yesterday. A small slice of turkey, some cranberries, a small helping of yams, a few veggies from my turkey shaped veggie tray, a small scoop of stuffing and some of grandma Vonne's lefsa (its a Norweign potato bread/tortilla). I wanted to go back for seconds, but instead I went on a walk for an hour.

I took 3 pies for dessert and decided to try each. I had 2 bites of the coconut cream and lemon meringue and then half a slice of the cranberry cherry pie. It was delish!

Now the pressure is on. Josh's little brother got engaged yesterday. We all knew it was coming. For months now, Melanie and I have joked that the bride would be the only one prettier then us at the wedding. But now that there is actually a real wedding coming up, we feel pressured to step it up. They have to work out a few details, like a job he just applied for and her trying to transfer colleges, the wedding could be in March or May. I'm kind of hoping for May so I have that much more time. But either way, I'm even that more committed now.

I'm less then 2 pounds away from being under 180. I hope I can be under 180 by the end of next week.

Josh is pretty much home for the winter. That will be hard on my diet. I told him that any time he wants elk steaks for dinner, to go ahead. I won't feel bad about not eating what he is eating and I'll eat something small like cereal or a salad.

I know some of my weight loss friends are just hoping to maintain through the holiday season, but I am determined to keep loosing.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Right now, I'm feeling really good about this week. But the better I feel, the more I dread Thanksgiving. I'm so close to being under 180, but I'm so worried about how Thanksgiving dinner will knock the scale right back up. I know Thanksgiving only comes once a year, but I've worked so hard on this weight loss. I don't want to loose control of it over the holidays.

Which is already kind of happening. I've decided to take a veggie tray and a diet drink to dinner. Sounds good. But now I'm taking THREE pies. But I took a pie making class a few weeks ago and I am so excited to try out my new skills. So I can't choose just one, even though that would be easier. And I can't make myself make only one I like and then others I wouldn't.

Maybe I'll just skip dinner altogether and go right for dessert. ;)

And I thought between the meal and dessert I would suggest to Melanie that we go find the walking park and go around a few (or several) laps. I think I'll be able to talk her into it since I think she is just as nervous about the holidays as I am.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Week 37

I love the good weeks. :) Sometimes I just feel like I'm on top of this weight loss. Other times I feel like I have spun out of control. But this was a good week. I'm now down 56 pounds!!!!

Dr. Pepper 10 makes me feel like I'm cheating on my diet, but since its only 10 calories, I'm not. I LOVE the stuff. But I don't over do it, I limit myself to only one (or two) a day so at the most I'm still only drinking 20 calories, but I'm getting my fill of it. And its caught on in the office, we have a pop machine and the lady who fills it bought a case of Dr. Pepper 10. Its in the fridge with a note it costs as much as the soda pops in the machine. I think a few people are drinking it now.

And I don't know if it was just for me, but yesterday at our luncheon meeting, they had thin crust pizza. I made sure to thank a few people so stuff like that continues in the future. It makes this diet so much easier when I have to go somewhere to eat and they have healthier options for me.

So far I'm staying strong with exercising. I refuse to let this cold weather make me stop and put back on some of this weight I've worked so hard to loose. The wind blows just about every day. When that happens, I take my breaks and walk around inside the warehouse. But I still walk outside when the weather is nice so the view isn't so boring. ;)

My one discouragement this week has been on a mental level. I have a subscription to Weight Watchers Magazine. I was ready through it and they always do success stories. One lady had lost like 30 pounds, but she started at 146. I know in my head, that she is probably shorter then me and have a smaller frame so that is probably normal, but its really bothered me that she had to diet at 146. That's the goal I'm shooting for, but when I look at her, I fill like I'll still be fat. I've had to work hard to remind myself that I did talk to my doctor about what is healthy and that is what I'm shooting for. I just feel like the magazine can be a little misleading I guess. They should list if she is 5 feet tall etc, so I can get a better feel for what is healthy for her vs. me. Its just hard to think that when I hit my goal weight, other people are starting diets at that weight. Our society is so obsessed with being thin and I know I get sucked into it. I'll keep working hard to remember I want to be at a healthy weight and what my doctor suggested.

My tight pants aren't tight anymore, that's the highlight of the week. They are still snug enough I can't just pull them off like I do my other pants, but they are close to that. I don't know if I mentioned it, but I bought a few new clothes 2 weeks ago. Mostly sweaters so I could update my winter clothes with stuff that fits. But I also bought a new dress. I LOVE this dress. Our work party is in a few weeks. I don't normal dress up, but I think I look smokin' in this dress, so I'm going to dress up for the party this year.

I was really hoping to loose 60 pounds by Thanksgiving, but that is still 4 pounds away. Four doesn't seem like a lot, but realistically, most people loose 1-2 pounds a week. I've had a few weeks bigger then that, but only a few. So instead I'm just hoping to be under 180 before Thanksgiving, which is only 2 pounds away. And I'm only going to be eating my most favorite of foods on Thanksgiving. No mashed potatoes and maybe no turkey. I know its healthy, but I want to spend my calories on the side dishes I love so much but only get this time of year. I should also try to figure out a better punch option for me and Melanie, I wonder if they drink they usually make is high in sugar?

Monday, November 14, 2011

I'm back under 190, so I'm feeling pretty good this week. There's a chance the hubs might actually be home tonight, so I'm trying to remind myself to still eat healthy even if he is home. Its harder to eat well when he is home. And get my exercise in. But I'm still hoping he'll be home tonight for a few nights.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

I forgot to put in my post today that I'm not completely discouraged. Even though I'm up some from last week, surprisingly my tight pants fit really good today; the best they ever have. Odd, but I'm not going to complain.

Week 36

I did okish all week...until yesterday. Then yesterday, I learned, I am not ready AT ALL for the holidays. Work had their Thanksgiving luncheon yesterday and I ate way too much food. I even went back for seconds of one thing. This morning, it showed on the scale, by a lot. Ugh. Well, my period is starting too and that affects the scale, but I'm blaming it all on how I ate yesterday.

So today I skipped the lunch (because there is always leftovers so they feast for 2 days) and walked instead. I might try to make it a habit to walk during my lunch break in addition to my other breaks. I only get 30 mins for lunch, but I figured it was better then eating more food.

So now I'm terrified of the holidays. Not only do I not want to gain during the holidays, I want to continue loosing. Its not like the holidays are about food, but they sure seem to center around food a lot. I'm just going to have to avoid it as much as I can. Which will be hard at work, because the week of Thanksgiving until the New Year, there is ALWAYS food in the break room. They put a calendar out and people sign up to bring treats. And most people bring treats that are out of this world delish, but also out of this world high in sugar and/or fat. It won't be like other days where I can tell myself to only get something its an absolute favorite. I work with really good cooks and it will all be my favorites. So I think I'll either walk on my lunches or have to eat in the back meeting room. Which shouldn't feel bad about. My lunch break is during the unsocial hour, it seems like everyone else goes to lunch after me, so 9 times out of 10, I'm alone in the break room anyways. It won't be nothing to eat alone in a different room.

Eating the bare minimum today so I can enjoy my trip to the city tomorrow. Yes, I know, I just spent this post complaining about eating too much. But I don't get to eat in the city often and we're going to a new place tomorrow. I plan to thoroughly enjoy it.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Week 35

I find myself not wanting to blog on weeks like this. But I know I need to keep myself accountable so I force myself to blog, even about the bad weeks.

No weight loss this week. That is because there was no exercising on my part this week.

I could end my post there, but I did have one highlight this week.

The HARDEST thing to give up when I started this diet was Dr. Pepper. Diet Dr. Pepper is NOT the same, not even close. I've tried to quit soda pop altogether, but I just can't. I need that kick of caffeine. So I've been alternating between Diet Coke and Diet Pepsi. Both give me the kick I need, but still don't quite satisfy me.

Last week on FB a friend posted that Dr. Pepper 10 was only 1 weight watcher point. I know I'm not actually on that plan anymore, but I was still curious. A Diet Dr. Pepper was 0 points and I think a regular Dr. Pepper was like 8 points. So the 1 point caught my attention. I had never heard of Dr. Pepper 10, so I googled it. They are marketing it as a diet drink for men. Men can't drink a sissy drink like Diet Dr. Pepper, but they can drink Dr. Pepper 10 with only 10 BOLD calories. The marketing kind of reminded me of Coke Zero.

I was worried I'd have to look hard to find one to try, but really, who am I kidding. America has a soda pop epidemic, of course I found it easily.

It is not quite as good as Dr. Pepper, but it is so much better then Diet Dr. Pepper. It does satisfy my craving. And at only 10 cravings per serving, I don't feel guilty about it. I should mention the 10 calories is based on an 8 oz. can and I've been drinking the bottled kind, so its actually 20 calories by the time I finish my drink, but still I can live with only 20 calories.

Here's my motivation for this week.