Week 30

Much better this week, but man did I work my butt off! I'm now only 2 pounds away from loosing 50 pounds overall! And if I keep it up, I think I can hit that by next week. A lot of my meals have been replaced with the Bolthouse smoothies and protein drinks. I swear I'm addicted to the chocolate one. I wish it was cheaper so I could drink it all the time. Because I don't eat much during the day, I've been sure to have a good dinner at night and not just cereal.

I am back into exercise mode and I love it. For me, once I get good at exercising every day, I notice how good it makes me feel. I'll start to get stressed at work, but then on my break, I go walk and I feel so much better. I've also run the stairs in the work warehouse now and I'm getting better at that. When I did it last week, for the very first time, my legs hurt for 4 days. But now it doesn't even bother me. I did break it up though. I go up and down three times. When I get to the top the third time, I do a quick lap around the top. Then its up and down three more times and another lap up top. I only get a 15 minute break to do this. I can do 8 laps total right now (so I'm going up and down the stairs a total of 24 times). I hope to get even faster and be able to get more laps in.

Its hard to believe I've been in diet mode for 30 weeks now. I'm so glad I've kept track. This diet seemed impossible when I started, but once I accepted it would take time and work I knew I could do it. Some days I feel like I've made the lifestyle changes I need to make this a permanent change. Other times I feel like I haven't learned anything. Like last night, I had two pieces of frozen raspberry lemonade pie for dessert instead of stopping at one. But then the guilt set in so I hopped on my exercise bike for 45 mins. But I don't have dessert often, so maybe its ok to indulge, as long as its not often.

It would've been nice to loose all this weight in just a few months, but I really don't think that is the healthy way to go or that I would have been able to change my eating and exercising habits like I have going the long way.

Week 29 update

I'm feeling a bit better now. When I first started my diet, I didn't feel like I was loosing weight, even though the scale was showing results. Then Josh tugged on my pants one day and they fell off. I'm sure I've mentioned that on my blog somewhere, I'm just too lazy to go find it and add in the link. But after that I quit using the zipper and button each time I took my pants off. I just slid them on and off. Until they got so bad I had to use a belt.

I've reached that stage again. I was discouraged earlier today, but thought my pants felt looser so I tried pulling on them and yep, they slid right off. :) I don't need a belt yet, but it did make my day. I bought these pants about a month ago and they were kinda tight. But not anymore.

Week 29

I feel a little let down this week. I worked hard. I did my exercise every day. And I think I ate well. But the scale didn't change this week. But I'm going to try and not let it get me down. I'm going to keep with it and it will pay off. Maybe next week will be a bigger loss to make up for this week.

One new thing I did this week is ran the stairs in the warehouse at work. I usually walk on my 15 min breaks (so 2 times a day), but one day the wind was blowing. I HATE THE WIND! But I knew I had plans that night and I probably wouldn't exercise, so I knew I needed to do something. So I went to the warehouse and just walked up and down the stairs. I ran the first few times, but wow, that tires a person out fast. So I spent the rest of the time just walking up and down. Up and down. That was on Tuesday; I'm still sore. I think I'll do it again today and then try to do it a few times a week.

I'm just glad to be back in exercise mode. I really do think I feel better when I exercise daily. I feel like I sleep better and that I don't drag as much throughout the day. We have our department meeting today and I'm bummed because I won't get my 1st break and therefore no walk. Ya, I've become one weird person. But tonight there is a work dinner and it is like an hour after we close, so I think in the down time I'll go walk so I can still my exercise in for the day. I need to stay dedicated so I don't fall off the wagon again. Or maybe its just back on the wagon in this case.

Overall I'm not going to let the no change affect me. I was sick last week the night before weigh in and skipped dinner so that's probably why it was so great last week.

I've started looking at hairstyles. I can't wait to hit the 50 pound mark and get my hair makeover. I'm still not sure what I'm going to do, but I'm excited for it. I'm ready for a change and 50 pounds feels like a reason to give myself extra pampering.

Week 28

:) That's what I can say about this week. I did so much better. I exercised every day and it paid off. I'm now down 47.6 pounds. If I keep it up, I'll be down 50 pounds soon, hopefully in the next week or two. I'm so proud of myself.

I've been walking during BOTH of my 15 minute breaks at work. I'm so grateful the heat is gone so the afternoon walk isn't unbearable. I've been speed walking and I've been able to get faster so now I can do a little bit extra. I used to walk around the yard, then the shop, and then to the front door. But now I can make an extra trip back and forth in front of the shop, before heading in. Go me!!!!!

Yesterday, I saw this ARTICLE about Kirstie Alley. She went from a size 14 to a size 4! I'm not shooting for a size 4 myself, but now a size 8 (or 6) doesn't seem so impossible. I'm still trying to be realistic, but now I refuse to stop until I'm at least out of a size 10. I don't want to be in a size that has 2 digits.

I went ahead and cancelled my subscription to Weight Watchers. I think I've lost 10-15 pounds on my own so I think I'm ok to go at this alone. Really, I already am. I can't remember the last time I went on their website. My subscription doesn't officially end for another month because they already billed me for September, but I don't see myself changing my mind.

Here's to hoping for another great week. I've been fighting a cold all week and it finally got worse last night. But I'll push through it and keep working hard.

Week 27

I bought a new swimsuit and I feel pretty sexy in it. I wasn't going to buy one until next year, but I suddenly needed one for a get away weekend. I have the one I bought last year, but it is HUGE. I've been wearing it when I get in my mom's hottub, but I'm always alone when I do that, so I don't mind how it seems to fall off of me. But knowing I was going to be in a pool with other people, I decided to just buy a suit now. It is the end of summer so the pickins were slim, but they did seem to be a little cheaper. Josh is a dud and wouldn't go swimming with us, but he still made sure to tell me how nice I looked in my suit.

I did try to get Josh to share a meal with me when we ate out for lunch one day, but then realized we didn't want the same thing. It was at Panda Express. Really, he'll eat anything and be fine so I probably could've gotten away with it. But when he wanted rice, while I wanted chow mein, I decided I didn't want to share with him and make him eat only the stuff I wanted. And that worked out because he ordered spicy stuff I dont' like anyways.

Overall, I think this life style change is taking affect. I went shopping the other night and was STARVING. The Halloween candy is out and it was so tempting, but instead I had a protien shake. I finally got brave a few weeks ago and tried the Protein Plus Chocolate drink by Bolthouse Farms. The label has words like "soy" and "whey" on it, and I was worried that would ruin the chocolate taste. But I didn't think it tasted like a diet drink at all. It may now be my favorite. I think I could give up soda pop for this stuff, but its a little more expensive.

Speaking of soda, I'm down to usually one can a day at work. On the weekends, sometimes I have one, sometimes I don't. But man, do I miss the leaded stuff! I'd go back in a heartbeat if it didn't make me gain weight. But I just can't kick the caffiene habit enough to give it up altogether.

I ended the week by wearing a shirt I haven't worn in YEARS. I wouldn't have even still had it in my closet, but it was my absolute favorite Halloween shirt. It felt so good to fit in it.

Week 26

Crap, week 27 is almost over and I just realized I missed blogging about my diet for the last two weeks. I can't remember much about week 25 or 26, but I still thought I might try to think of some highlights.

Its kind of weird to have to actually button and zip my pants again. For so long, I just kept wearing my old jeans. They were so big, I could just slip them off and on. But it is nice to feel like I look good. Some days I still can't believe I have lost 3 sizes. I never thought I could do it. I'm so glad my hard work is paying off. It has been HARD, but its been worth it.

Exercise? I've been slacking again. Why do I do that?! I KNOW when I exercise I loose weight. I KNOW THIS! But I guess I just get lazy. I need to be better. I don't want this weight to be my finally weight.

Week 25

Looks like I forgot to blog about that week. It would've ended on August 25th.