Tuesday I was depressed, which led me to wanting to eat lots of food. So instead I tried to fight it by not eating. Not the best plan. I had a protein drink for lunch and left overs (from the weekend) for dinner and it was delish. Not the LARGE chocolate shake and onion rings I had wanted, but still the better choice then junk food or no food at all.
Wednesday, my cramps were the worst I think I have ever had. EVER. The cramps had me near tears. It hurt to move. And they made me nauseous. I was too afraid to eat in fear of loosing it anyways. Work had left over pizza in the break room and just the smell made me sick. Which mad me sad, I love pizza and had decided one piece would be ok.
So not the best week, at least not healthy eating wise.
Actually, the weekend was pretty good. I made egg rolls and won tons for dinner, but baked them instead of frying them. Josh was a little disappointed, but I told him to toughen up. And it didn't stop him from eating seconds. And thirds.
While in the city, I did better at ordering something decently healthy and only ate until I was full. I read on some one's blog that its not like you are starving a kid in Africa when you don't finish you food. Its a good point. How is my over full plate going to help someone in a different nation? I know, its still wasteful. But I used that theory this weekend to help myself realize I didn't need to eat every single thing on my plate.
I skipped Curves on Monday because it was one of those rare week nights when Josh is home. I don't regret it since I don't see him as much as I would like to. But I regretted it just enough to make sure I did Zumba AND Curves on Tuesday. I almost walked out on Tuesday when I saw it was a different instructor (she is WAY more intense), but I remembered skipping the night before and decided to toughen up. I did the full Zumba and then after that, I did the Curves circuit.
Which reminds me, I need to track a few people down and call them liars. Over the years, I have heard many times, that exercising will make your cramps less. In fact, I just barely read it on a website while doing some research for relief. NOT.TRUE! By the end of Tuesday night, I thought I was going to die. I've tried the exercising philosophy a few times over the years and it has never worked for me. But seriously, last night was horrid. And it hasn't gotten ANY better. Cramps are a *bitch.
I just reread that paragraph. Ignore my sassy anger. Its the cramps and hormones talking.
I probably should have skipped Curves last night because it made it worse. I could hardly move. I went home and took a hot bath with Epsom salt dissolved in the water and I took a prescription pain pill because the Motrin wasn't even touching the pain. When I got out, I felt slightly better. But I tossed all night long. Today, the pain is slightly better then yesterday so that is a plus, but I think I'm feeling the side effects of the medicine I took.
Overall, I don't feel great about this week, but I know that's because my period is here and so HORRID. Next week will be better.
The cruise is only 10 days away! I'm so excited. I keep telling myself that I WILL exercise every day, at least the sea travel days. I want to be able to eat some fun things and not feel too guilty about it. I think I might have a Curves measurements due before then; I'll have to check. I'd rather do it the day before the cruise vs. the day after we get home.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Week 59
So I'm up a little today. But it was still a good week so that doesn't even bother me. In fact, it made me glad that I did go to Curves last night, even though I didn't want to, or that number might have been higher. Although, I probably shouldn't have eaten so much dessert at scrapbook group last night. Oh well.
I had several highlights this week.
1) Buying a new swimsuit. I had to leave the changing room and go find a smaller size. And I love how it looks on me.
2) I almost though about not listing this, but its MY blog/weight loss journal. So I hope its not TMI. Buying new lingerie. That's all I'm going to say. ;)
3) Trying on work shirts to figure out my new size. Every year, work has an annual picnic. They buy the employees a new shirt so we all will match. The picnic isn't until June, but they have to order now so they can be shipped and embroidered in time. That meant that last year I stuck with the same size because I had no idea how much weight I would loose before June. One lady had said she thought she would be a size 8, but then ended up in like a 14. So when I grabbed a few to try on, I went on the bigger side. But they were too big and I had to go ask for a different size. Last year I wore a size 18. This year I'm ordering a size 10! I almost went with a size 12 because I'm worried about it shrinking in the wash and then the buttons won't fit across my chest. But I NEVER wear button shirts buttoned up. I always wear them open with a tank underneath. So I decided it felt like everywhere had enough room for possible shrinking and ordered the size 10.
4) Curves, which had a few great moments itself. Monday was my best workout so far. The computer said I burned 388 calories. I now have a goal to hopefully some day burn 400. The next day, I didn't do as well. But really I did because I did Zumba for half an hour before my Curves workout and the system only kept track of the Curves part. Unfortunately, my hip has been hurting since then. I still went to Curves last night, but it is worse today. So I think I'll try to get into the chiropractor today. Which means no Curves tonight. I've heard a few people say you need to wait 24 hours after a chiropractor appt. So maybe instead I'll go soak in my mom's hot tub.
The other good moment at Curves was I finally bought some workout pants. I was going to wait until I saw more results. But the sweats I've been using are so HOT! During Zumba, I was going through my closet in my head, to figure out what pants I could wear instead. But then after that, the owner said I could buy the display stuff for half off. So I tried on a few pairs and found one I really liked so I bought them. She also had a really cute t-shirt. But the size was XL. I really wanted it, it was so cute and would have matched my pants perfectly. But I reminded myself I don't buy clothes with an "X" in the size anymore and I was able to say no to it. I did find a shirt in my closet to match the pants. It does have an "X" in the size, but its old so its ok to wear until I find something new.
5) Buying new clothes and not hiding the tags. I didn't even realize that was something I used to do. But last week I ordered a few things online to complete my cruise wardrobe. When the items came in the mail, I tried them on to make sure they fit fine. Then I tore the tags off and left them on my dresser. The next day, when I saw those same tags, I realized, I used to immediately throw tags away because I didn't want Josh to know what size I had really become. My size no longer bothers me and I don't feel the need to hide it. I think that is one of the biggest highlights since starting my weight loss journey. I love being comfortable with my body.
I had several highlights this week.
1) Buying a new swimsuit. I had to leave the changing room and go find a smaller size. And I love how it looks on me.
2) I almost though about not listing this, but its MY blog/weight loss journal. So I hope its not TMI. Buying new lingerie. That's all I'm going to say. ;)
3) Trying on work shirts to figure out my new size. Every year, work has an annual picnic. They buy the employees a new shirt so we all will match. The picnic isn't until June, but they have to order now so they can be shipped and embroidered in time. That meant that last year I stuck with the same size because I had no idea how much weight I would loose before June. One lady had said she thought she would be a size 8, but then ended up in like a 14. So when I grabbed a few to try on, I went on the bigger side. But they were too big and I had to go ask for a different size. Last year I wore a size 18. This year I'm ordering a size 10! I almost went with a size 12 because I'm worried about it shrinking in the wash and then the buttons won't fit across my chest. But I NEVER wear button shirts buttoned up. I always wear them open with a tank underneath. So I decided it felt like everywhere had enough room for possible shrinking and ordered the size 10.
4) Curves, which had a few great moments itself. Monday was my best workout so far. The computer said I burned 388 calories. I now have a goal to hopefully some day burn 400. The next day, I didn't do as well. But really I did because I did Zumba for half an hour before my Curves workout and the system only kept track of the Curves part. Unfortunately, my hip has been hurting since then. I still went to Curves last night, but it is worse today. So I think I'll try to get into the chiropractor today. Which means no Curves tonight. I've heard a few people say you need to wait 24 hours after a chiropractor appt. So maybe instead I'll go soak in my mom's hot tub.
The other good moment at Curves was I finally bought some workout pants. I was going to wait until I saw more results. But the sweats I've been using are so HOT! During Zumba, I was going through my closet in my head, to figure out what pants I could wear instead. But then after that, the owner said I could buy the display stuff for half off. So I tried on a few pairs and found one I really liked so I bought them. She also had a really cute t-shirt. But the size was XL. I really wanted it, it was so cute and would have matched my pants perfectly. But I reminded myself I don't buy clothes with an "X" in the size anymore and I was able to say no to it. I did find a shirt in my closet to match the pants. It does have an "X" in the size, but its old so its ok to wear until I find something new.
5) Buying new clothes and not hiding the tags. I didn't even realize that was something I used to do. But last week I ordered a few things online to complete my cruise wardrobe. When the items came in the mail, I tried them on to make sure they fit fine. Then I tore the tags off and left them on my dresser. The next day, when I saw those same tags, I realized, I used to immediately throw tags away because I didn't want Josh to know what size I had really become. My size no longer bothers me and I don't feel the need to hide it. I think that is one of the biggest highlights since starting my weight loss journey. I love being comfortable with my body.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
I'm reading through my Weight Watchers magazine (that I have a four year subscription to). I really liked this thought so I wanted to write it down.
"There is a natural tendency to think about losing and keeping weight off as two completely distinct processes and phases. .... In most studies of people who have successfully maintained weight loss for a long time, the conclusion is that most of the food and activity strategies that helped them lose are the same ones that help keep the weight off. If we think about this statement, it makes perfect sense. If we lose weight by following on e strategy, and then go back to our old habits, we will invariably regain the weight. So, weight maintenance is actually about continuing those practices."
I know this is true, but I have the feeling it is something I will have to constantly remind myself of it for the rest of my life.
Oh, and this week has gone very well. I'll share more on my official weight in day on Thursday. :)
"There is a natural tendency to think about losing and keeping weight off as two completely distinct processes and phases. .... In most studies of people who have successfully maintained weight loss for a long time, the conclusion is that most of the food and activity strategies that helped them lose are the same ones that help keep the weight off. If we think about this statement, it makes perfect sense. If we lose weight by following on e strategy, and then go back to our old habits, we will invariably regain the weight. So, weight maintenance is actually about continuing those practices."
I know this is true, but I have the feeling it is something I will have to constantly remind myself of it for the rest of my life.
Oh, and this week has gone very well. I'll share more on my official weight in day on Thursday. :)
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Week 58
I'm posting a few days early because I'll be in the hospital with my mom the rest of the week.
And because I did my measurements at Curves last night and had positive results. :)
My measurements on 3/1/12.
Bust 40.50
Waist 33.00
Abdomen 37.00
Hip 43.00
Thigh 26.25
Arm 12.50
Weight 182.80
BMI 31.37
Body Fat % 35.7
Body Fat 65.24
My measurements on 4/9/12.
Bust 40.75
Waist 32.75
Abdomen 36.5
Hip 42.75
Thigh 26.00
Arm 12.25
Weight 179.8
BMI 30.85
Body Fat % 35.00
Body Fat 62.91
Results
Bust +.25
Waist -.25
Abdomen -.50
Hip -.25
Thigh -.50
Arm -.50
Weight -3.00
BMI -.52
Body Fat % .70
Body Fat -2.33
Curves adds all the results together for a total loss of -1.75 inches and -3.00 lbs. But I love that my bust grew a little so, for me personally, I'm not counting that number. Therefore I lost a total of 2 inches last month! Because a girls brains and breasts should not count against her. ;)
I'm very happy with those numbers. It helped me to get excited again about Curves. I'm not ready to throw in the towel now. My weight loss has defiantly slowed down from what it is a year ago, but I'm ok with that. I just need to work on those stubborn areas (arms, thighs, stomach, hips).
I wish I had kept record of my measurements when I started my weight loss last year. I counted on Weight Watchers to do that and that is one of the areas that made me hate their website so much! But I think I remember my waist being something like 42 - 44 inches so THAT is a huge difference compared to now. I remember measuring everything else, I just don't remember the numbers. Oh well, back then it was about weight to me. Now I'm trying to focus more on inches.
One thing I have noticed with Curves is their scale (which is probably better to begin with) usually weighs me a little less then my home one. At first I was bummed because when I got on last night I had gained a pound. But then I reminded myself that when I started this journey, my official number was the one on my scale so that is what I will always refer to when talking about my grand total lost. But when it comes to Curves, they tell me how much I have lost on their program. So it works the same way. The loss that I see there comes from their beginning total. It all works out the same and I will stress over it no longer.
I got a travel pass from Curves and hope to use it while in the city with my mom. We'll see how that goes. If I can find a place near the hospital, I'll use it. But if I have to drive too far into the city, I don't think I will. I do NOT like city driving.
While at the chiropractor last week, my weight loss came up. I have only been seeing the lady that does the laser treatments on my foot for a few months, so she didn't know that big me. When I said something about loosing 60 pounds, she asked to see a before picture. I didn't have any with me, but I might just have to take one in. And FYI, I think the laser treatments are helping my foot. Some days my foot still hurts, but not like it used to. Hopefully I'll be able to keep going regularly and get it cleared up for good.
This morning I was finally back down to my lowest weight of 178.8. FINALLY. It might be hard to keep with the city stuff the next few days, but I'm going to try. But then again, the cafeteria in the hospital makes the BEST salads EVER! I have been thinking about it ever since they said when my mom's surgery would be. I can't wait to have one (or two) again.
I think that's about it for this week. I love it when I have good weeks like this; makes it easy to continue on.
*UPDATE: I remembered one other thing I wanted to mention. I had a friend send me a great message on Facebook. I'm blogging at work, so I can't go copy and paste it, but the jest of it was she was amazed at how well I was looking and how she was proud of me for discovering the beauty within and without side of me. Then she ended it by saying "you are becoming the kind of girl that other girls love to hate." Made.My.Day. :) I used to be one of those girls that was jealous of other girls. It feels good to be on the other end.
Josh is right, I am not humble at all when it comes to my weight loss.
And because I did my measurements at Curves last night and had positive results. :)
My measurements on 3/1/12.
Bust 40.50
Waist 33.00
Abdomen 37.00
Hip 43.00
Thigh 26.25
Arm 12.50
Weight 182.80
BMI 31.37
Body Fat % 35.7
Body Fat 65.24
My measurements on 4/9/12.
Bust 40.75
Waist 32.75
Abdomen 36.5
Hip 42.75
Thigh 26.00
Arm 12.25
Weight 179.8
BMI 30.85
Body Fat % 35.00
Body Fat 62.91
Results
Bust +.25
Waist -.25
Abdomen -.50
Hip -.25
Thigh -.50
Arm -.50
Weight -3.00
BMI -.52
Body Fat % .70
Body Fat -2.33
Curves adds all the results together for a total loss of -1.75 inches and -3.00 lbs. But I love that my bust grew a little so, for me personally, I'm not counting that number. Therefore I lost a total of 2 inches last month! Because a girls brains and breasts should not count against her. ;)
I'm very happy with those numbers. It helped me to get excited again about Curves. I'm not ready to throw in the towel now. My weight loss has defiantly slowed down from what it is a year ago, but I'm ok with that. I just need to work on those stubborn areas (arms, thighs, stomach, hips).
I wish I had kept record of my measurements when I started my weight loss last year. I counted on Weight Watchers to do that and that is one of the areas that made me hate their website so much! But I think I remember my waist being something like 42 - 44 inches so THAT is a huge difference compared to now. I remember measuring everything else, I just don't remember the numbers. Oh well, back then it was about weight to me. Now I'm trying to focus more on inches.
One thing I have noticed with Curves is their scale (which is probably better to begin with) usually weighs me a little less then my home one. At first I was bummed because when I got on last night I had gained a pound. But then I reminded myself that when I started this journey, my official number was the one on my scale so that is what I will always refer to when talking about my grand total lost. But when it comes to Curves, they tell me how much I have lost on their program. So it works the same way. The loss that I see there comes from their beginning total. It all works out the same and I will stress over it no longer.
I got a travel pass from Curves and hope to use it while in the city with my mom. We'll see how that goes. If I can find a place near the hospital, I'll use it. But if I have to drive too far into the city, I don't think I will. I do NOT like city driving.
While at the chiropractor last week, my weight loss came up. I have only been seeing the lady that does the laser treatments on my foot for a few months, so she didn't know that big me. When I said something about loosing 60 pounds, she asked to see a before picture. I didn't have any with me, but I might just have to take one in. And FYI, I think the laser treatments are helping my foot. Some days my foot still hurts, but not like it used to. Hopefully I'll be able to keep going regularly and get it cleared up for good.
This morning I was finally back down to my lowest weight of 178.8. FINALLY. It might be hard to keep with the city stuff the next few days, but I'm going to try. But then again, the cafeteria in the hospital makes the BEST salads EVER! I have been thinking about it ever since they said when my mom's surgery would be. I can't wait to have one (or two) again.
I think that's about it for this week. I love it when I have good weeks like this; makes it easy to continue on.
*UPDATE: I remembered one other thing I wanted to mention. I had a friend send me a great message on Facebook. I'm blogging at work, so I can't go copy and paste it, but the jest of it was she was amazed at how well I was looking and how she was proud of me for discovering the beauty within and without side of me. Then she ended it by saying "you are becoming the kind of girl that other girls love to hate." Made.My.Day. :) I used to be one of those girls that was jealous of other girls. It feels good to be on the other end.
Josh is right, I am not humble at all when it comes to my weight loss.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Week 57
I went back to Curves on Monday, even though I wasn't feeling well. I was going to skip going, missing one more day couldn't hurt too much, right? But in the end, I decided to buckle down and get back with it. I hadn't been in 2 weeks. It was so hard! I hate it when I get out of shape. Then I did Zumba on Tuesday, I really like it on Tuesday's w/ the easier lady to follow. The Thursday girl is way too fast for a beginner like me. Then last night I finally felt back into it again. I rocked it! On Monday, I only burned 243 calories, but last night I burned 368, so that was a vast improvement. Its time for my measurements so I set those up for Monday to give me a week to get back on track. I'm nervous and excited at the same time. I think the day I joined Curves was the day I had to go back up a size, so I know I'll at least weigh a little less.
I've been trying not to stress so much. I was so stressed before the wedding trying to loose weight, but I think it sabotaged my efforts. So I'm trying to not stress about loosing anything before the cruise. I even went ahead and started buying new clothes for the cruise. I feel like I have a real wardrobe again! I love all my new pretty clothes. Sorry Dress Barn, but Maurice's is my new favorite store.
I've been trying to accept I may not loose any more weight. I set a goal, but always tried to tell myself to also listen to my body. I haven't completely accepted it, but I'm working on it. I have also spent all week telling myself my arms are beautiful. The three things I wish I could still shrink are my arms, thighs and stomach. Each time I see them, especially in the nude, all I think is I hate my body. But I'm trying to not do that anymore. I'm working on it one part at a time, so right now my arms. I'm trying to reshape the mental image in my head that I always see instead of the image in the mirror. I think its working cause I haven't hated my arms so much this week.
Here's the drum roll part. The other night while putting away laundry, I decided to leave out all the shirts I plan to take on the cruise so I can figure out if I need anymore (which I could probably be fine, but I would like 2-3 more if I can find ones I like). We've decided as a group, to do a dress up night. So I briefly dug to the back of the closet and found an old high school dance dress. I decided to try it on.
Here's a picture from when I wore the dress to the Winter Ball. I forgot to look in my scrapbook to see when it was, but I'm pretty sure it was in January 2000.
And here is the picture of me wearing the dress 12 years later. The buttons over the bust would not stay shut. Every time I moved, they popped open. So I'm not sure I'll actually wear it on the cruise (even though Josh is fine with it that way), but it felt so good to be able to fit into one of my all time favorite dresses. It even made me think about making an appearance in church, just so when people commented on my dress, I could say "oh, this old thing? I wore it while in high school." I posted a picture of it on face book and I love what my sister said. I had said something about the extra curves making it hard to keep the buttons shut. Vanessa commented "I'm so proud of you! And the extra curves just means that you are a woman now instead of a girl, which I would also consider to be an accomplishment."
I've been trying not to stress so much. I was so stressed before the wedding trying to loose weight, but I think it sabotaged my efforts. So I'm trying to not stress about loosing anything before the cruise. I even went ahead and started buying new clothes for the cruise. I feel like I have a real wardrobe again! I love all my new pretty clothes. Sorry Dress Barn, but Maurice's is my new favorite store.
I've been trying to accept I may not loose any more weight. I set a goal, but always tried to tell myself to also listen to my body. I haven't completely accepted it, but I'm working on it. I have also spent all week telling myself my arms are beautiful. The three things I wish I could still shrink are my arms, thighs and stomach. Each time I see them, especially in the nude, all I think is I hate my body. But I'm trying to not do that anymore. I'm working on it one part at a time, so right now my arms. I'm trying to reshape the mental image in my head that I always see instead of the image in the mirror. I think its working cause I haven't hated my arms so much this week.
Here's the drum roll part. The other night while putting away laundry, I decided to leave out all the shirts I plan to take on the cruise so I can figure out if I need anymore (which I could probably be fine, but I would like 2-3 more if I can find ones I like). We've decided as a group, to do a dress up night. So I briefly dug to the back of the closet and found an old high school dance dress. I decided to try it on.
Here's a picture from when I wore the dress to the Winter Ball. I forgot to look in my scrapbook to see when it was, but I'm pretty sure it was in January 2000.
And here is the picture of me wearing the dress 12 years later. The buttons over the bust would not stay shut. Every time I moved, they popped open. So I'm not sure I'll actually wear it on the cruise (even though Josh is fine with it that way), but it felt so good to be able to fit into one of my all time favorite dresses. It even made me think about making an appearance in church, just so when people commented on my dress, I could say "oh, this old thing? I wore it while in high school." I posted a picture of it on face book and I love what my sister said. I had said something about the extra curves making it hard to keep the buttons shut. Vanessa commented "I'm so proud of you! And the extra curves just means that you are a woman now instead of a girl, which I would also consider to be an accomplishment."
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